Today I feel grateful. This has been the best and worst year of my life and I can’t believe it has already passed. December 1, 2014 I woke up in the OR having undergone gastric bypass surgery. I never imagined that it would change everything about my life in an instant. I remember the pain I felt when I opened my eyes. I remember the fear and regret. It was overwhelming and I’m saddened I allowed my fears to run the show for awhile. This year, I have felt more than I have ever felt and I've learned more about myself than I ever knew existed. Admittedly, I didn’t feel gratitude for this year until very recently. I didn’t understand that it could be both. Both the best and worst year all at the same time. So, for today, I am grateful for the days. I am grateful for the good days, bad days and absolutely horrible days. They all matter. Today, I am grateful for three-hundred, sixty-five days that have equaled a year.